4 years Later:
Wow a lot has changed! It’s amazing how much 4 years can change a person. I’m returning to this blog with the same purpose I started it for; To explore myself, my priorities, and the society in which I find myself. I am still possess the same inquisitive and precocious nature that I find interwoven in these old posts, but find my nature has softened. One big cross country move and a lot of life changes later, let’s see where I stand.
As explored through a previous post, I moved to Michigan about 3 years ago and I love it. It has been the most difficult and best decision I have ever made for myself. I live in a tiny town about 40 minutes out of Lansing on a beautiful little parcel of woods. I fell in love with a man who is my opposite in lot of ways, but constantly challenges me to be better and loves me even when I am unable to love myself. He is intelligent, patient and skilled, and I am thankful for him every day.
I now am working towards a Paralegal Studies degree at my local community college in hopes of going to law school after finishing my B.A. in the fall. I found the law out of passion and necessity. I gave up Biology ,and moved to the Midwest in the process, in hopes to find who I was and what I wanted out of life. I have deep regard and respect for those in the Medical field. It is difficult on an emotional, intellectual, and physical level and I give them kudos for doing everything they do. Unfortunately, it wasn’t for me. I hated it, a lot. I found myself being pushed towards a specialty that I didn’t want (OB-GYN) and found the culture to be one centered on profits and not the empathetic field my 17 year old college bound self idolized it to be. I drifted for a few years stuck in the cycle of a perceived split between money and passion, while trying to make a successful life in this dreadful economy in which we have found ourselves the last few years. I suffered from depression and closeted myself away from family and friends in the process. Something I am not proud of, but view as a fundamental process in being who I am now. I still suffer from anxiety and occasional depression, but have become self-aware enough to know how I’m feeling and what I need. I’m slowly working on repairing my friendships, while being cognizant of my own emotional health and needs in the process. Finding and cultivating a passion for the legal field has been a huge part of this healing process. I found something that stimulates my inquisitive nature and incorporates my passion for social justice in a constructive way.
I no longer pole dance for fun, mostly because I haven’t found a local studio that incorporates the yogic and self-help principles that attracted me to it in the first place. I never did it for attention, but did it because I wanted to be fit and strong. I hope to return to it when I find a studio that reignites my passion for it, but I’m not actively seeking it at this time. I am however looking forward to moving forward in my fitness journey, and look forward to sharing that process with you as well.
So I guess now that I’ve changed just about everything this blog was, let’s discuss what it’s going to be. I love to cook, and being responsible for feeding 2 people, 3 meals a day, 7 days a week has given me plenty of opportunity to cultivate and explore this passion. I intend to use this space to discuss recipes I’ve fallen in love with, projects I’m working on, both scholastic and around my home, and also the world around me. Thanks for welcoming me back, I’m happy to be here.
With Love and Intention,