4 Years Later…Welcome Back

4 years Later: 

Wow a lot has changed! It’s amazing how much 4 years can change a person. I’m returning to this blog with the same purpose I started it for; To explore myself, my priorities, and the society in which I find myself. I am still possess the same inquisitive and precocious nature that I find interwoven in these old posts, but find my nature has softened. One big cross country move and a lot of life changes later, let’s see where I stand.

As explored through a previous post, I moved to Michigan about 3 years ago and I love it. It has been the most difficult and best decision I have ever made for myself. I live in a tiny town about 40 minutes out of Lansing on a beautiful little parcel of woods. I fell in love with a man who is my opposite in lot of ways, but constantly challenges me to be better and loves me even when I am unable to love myself. He is intelligent, patient and skilled, and I am thankful for him every day.

I now am working towards a Paralegal Studies degree at my local community college in hopes of going to law school after finishing my B.A. in the fall. I found the law out of passion and necessity. I gave up Biology ,and moved to the Midwest in the process, in hopes to find who I was and what I wanted out of life. I have deep regard and respect for those in the Medical field. It is difficult on an emotional, intellectual, and physical level and I give them kudos for doing everything they do. Unfortunately, it wasn’t for me. I hated it, a lot. I found myself being pushed towards a specialty that I didn’t want (OB-GYN) and found the culture to be one centered on profits and not the empathetic field my 17 year old college bound self idolized it to be. I drifted for a few years stuck in the cycle of a perceived split between money and passion, while trying to make a successful life in this dreadful economy in which we have found ourselves the last few years. I suffered from depression and closeted myself away from family and friends in the process. Something I am not proud of, but view as a fundamental process in being who I am now. I still suffer from anxiety and occasional depression, but have become self-aware enough to know how I’m feeling and what I need. I’m slowly working on repairing my friendships, while being cognizant of my own emotional health and needs in the process. Finding and cultivating a passion for the legal field has been a huge part of this healing process. I found something that stimulates my inquisitive nature and incorporates my passion for social justice in a constructive way.

I no longer pole dance for fun, mostly because I haven’t found a local studio that incorporates the yogic and self-help principles that attracted me to it in the first place. I never did it for attention, but did it because I wanted to be fit and strong. I hope to return to it when I find a studio that reignites my passion for it, but I’m not actively seeking it at this time. I am however looking forward to moving forward in my fitness journey, and look forward to sharing that process with you as well.

So I guess now that I’ve changed just about everything this blog was, let’s discuss what it’s going to be. I love to cook, and being responsible for feeding 2 people, 3 meals a day, 7 days a week has given me plenty of opportunity to cultivate and explore this passion. I intend to use this space to discuss recipes I’ve fallen in love with, projects I’m working on, both scholastic and around my home, and also the world around me. Thanks for welcoming me back, I’m happy to be here.

With Love and Intention,

Lauren

“Let food be thy medicine and medicine be thy food” ~Hippocrates

In our culture, we seem to have a love/hate relationship with food. We are surrounded by images and advertisements that try to sell us food that looks delicious, but doesn’t make us feel good about eating. We are nudged to eat that cheeseburger, but then feel really really guilty about doing it. Combined with the fact that the cheapest, most accessible foods are often the highest in calories and least nutrionally dense, we’ve got ourselves a problem here folks. What do we do? It seems daunting to look around and the food landscape that surrounds us, and perhaps even more so to look within and ask ourselves why. Why do I feel this way? Why am I poisoning myself? How can I fix it? And then factoring in time and economic pressures, it becomes easy to feel overwhelmed.

This is the situation I found myself in about a year ago. Fat, Unhappy and Sick. I was overweight, had constant migraines and suffered from chronic fatigue. I drank coffee like my life depended on it, just to function it seemed. I was like a lot of Americans. I’m inquisitive by nature, so naturally I had to learn why this was happening to me. I watched some great documentaries: Fat, Sick,and Nearly Dead (http://www.fatsickandnearlydead.com/), FoodMatters (http://www.foodmatters.tv/), Hungry for Change (http://www.hungryforchange.tv/), and Forks over Knives (http://www.forksoverknives.com/). I realized something frightening, I was making myself sick, just by eating! But, it was only partially my fault, I quite simply didn’t know any better, and frankly not a lot of us do. Sure, I knew to drink water, and eat green stuff, but I didn’t know about micronutrients, supplements or the dangers of “diet” and processed foods. I had to learn what “raw” food was and how to encorporate it into my lifestyle. One of the simpelest ways to start was simply to read the labels, and simply: If I don’t know what it is, I don’t eat it. That in itself revolutionized the way I looked at food and at eating.

So I made a commitment for me and for my planet. I will stay hydrated, I will eat natural and organic fruits and vegetables. I will take a vitamin supplement. At least 50% of each meal will be raw and plant based. I will stop dieting. I will realize that I am human and will not eat perfectly all the time. I will not deprive myself of anything, but simply make the choices that are best for my body. I will ask questions. I will give myself permission to give my body and soul the very best it deserves.

Here’s what I’m going to do: I will be posting recipes and resources that I have found work for me, and here’s what I ask of all of you. Comment, post, tell me what works for you. Ask questions, have discussions. Let’s figure this out and support one another.

XOXO Lauren

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